How can I hold tight to prayer?

We are human, such ups and downs are normal. What is not normal is to adopt it. Try to pull yourself together by accepting a new birthday for you every morning you get up. Reject the devil's "you're done, you can't recover" type of delusions. Try to see it as a physical illness. Believe that it will pass when you are treated. Be patient, don't rush. Get ready to fight until the last breath. Prayer is the pillar of religion, make it your biggest goal not to harm it. We pray for you, may Allah help you.